I just need a moment
Lost on this journey
Too many lonely nights
Too many unanswered messages
Too many sighs full of disappointment
Too many unexpected acceptance of wrong doing misbehaving
Lost moments that should have been filled bliss lust happiness..
Too many I am that I am because of who I am except all or nothing
Too many missed passionate moments
Too many conversations wrapped salted sarcasm
On this journey I’ve become lost… my way back is unfound
No one knows but you.. no brag no hype just you… inside secrets hidden shadows.. no one will know.. loose notice lost importance.. lack of relevance..secret keeper no one knows but you… they say less they careless you are less to their world. That’s why no one knows but you.
It maybe untrue
But I definitely feel blue
Where are you?
Where have you been?
You left me to fend
For myself
Yes myself
Your never around
When I’m down
I frown
Alone
Sad
Loneliness has become the now
The cause of my frown
How should I replace this emptiness?
Today I’m antsy thoughts rumbling and rolling into what I don’t know
My thoughts cant stay still will not relax.. antsy
Feeling something
Unwanted nervous needy horny
Find my thoughts in a musician lyrics a lyrical thought of desire of need of recognition. .to be wanted
To be fucked to be desire my thoughts wonder into an antsy unknown world
Today I feel needy
They represent a peacock so beautiful and bold! So cocky and vibrant! I love them! Never jealous always promised so deep in me it’s damn near sacrificial!
i promise to give them me all of me my sisterly love damn near motherly! Yes I stand behind them right and/or wrong!! So very strong! Because I am my brothers keeper! never mistake it for anything other then a bond unbreakable! Because I am my brothers keeper forever until I live this earth not them but I! No one could and would understand this bond strong I am the keeper of my brothers and it’s real
Loving my curves!!
I’m not seeing therefore I’m blind
I’m frantically searching but I can not find
What am I really looking for
All things have closed like, doors
Something more
then before
I’m not seeing therefore I’m blind
Everything is blurred nothing simple and clean like lines
why is my vision construed
I might have
caught something
Fell for something
When I knew better
Then to let her
Into my thoughts my mind
Wondering if I lost time
She doesn’t care
I swear
I don’t understand the feeling
I have felt so angry dealing
with my emotions
Hmm such a long time
Let go
it hasn’t been that long
Ramble about something else let go move on she will
what did we build
Nothing I suppose
better yet who the fuck knows
Why do I care
Why did I share my thoughts my feelings my dreams Hmmm
So hurt my feelings are so lost
